yet I keep scraping my knees on the ground each time I fall.
I suppose these scars that I’ve collected, covered up by the band-aids of time and comforting words from friends, will have to suffice for now.
Because somewhere out there is my safety net. Made up of two arms, a sweet embrace, and a heart that can reciprocate the love I’m so eager to give.
Somewhere out there, you’re waiting to catch me. And so I’ll continue to fall, blindly and willingly, until I finally fall for you.
My mom texted me on her way home from work that she was craving Spam & Eggs with Rice.
Happy Mom, Happy Home :)
Peep this special live hip hop version of “Do You Wanna Build a Snowman” that I did at my show last weekend! :)
Had tons of fun. Shout out to everyone who came through!! And thank you to Samantha Tu for recording this!
Another fun show for the books! :) Such a pleasure sharing the stage with these guys, as always!
Ended a lovely weekend with these cuties. :) Nothin like good talks with good company.
Not the one competing against the ones who hurt you.
I don’t love lightly. I’m as hopeless a romantic as they come. I’ll move mountains and jump through hoops just to make sure you’re okay. Just to make sure you’re smiling. Just to make sure you know that you have someone who cares for you deeply.
But only if you’ll let me.
I have too much love to give to not give it to someone who really deserves and appreciates it.
And damn it I’m going to find someone who does.
I wrote this in response to a friend’s facebook post concerning feeling lost in his direction in life, his fear of wasting his time, of disappointing his loves ones and, more importantly, himself. I thought maybe others could also benefit from what I have to say, so I’m posting it here now. Hope it helps. Stay inspired out there ya’ll!
Choose passion. Dear lawd korean beyonce black jesus choose passion. I want to provide for myself and my future family as much as anyone else, but I would much rather give my all to find a way to do that while also finding fulfillment and joy in the work that I do everyday. I would rather struggle financially doing a job that I absolutely adore, than be financially stable with a job I dread going to everyday.
Perhaps my biggest motivation for this is a realization that came to me recently: Your future children, nephews, nieces, grandchildren, etc, will base their life and how they live it on how you lived your own. If I follow my dreams and find a way to make it work, they’ll know and learn from my example that they can do the same. I want them to know that it’s possible, because it is. We all have the power to make it happen. We just have to find it from within where it’s waiting for us. And damn it you can too.
I was lucky enough to find my passion at a young age, and despite that, the long journey of “following my dreams” has definitely taken it’s toll.
I’m drowning in student loans. I’m far from financially stable. College has taken far longer than I had hoped. Every day brings a new challenge and a new obstacle to overcome. I’m sleep deprived and often very overwhelmed.
But I’m happy, motivated and inspired every day despite ALL of that.
I have a job that I love, and I’m making a living off of all the things I love to do. The fulfillment you get from that fact alone is more than you can ever get from a fat paycheck.
As for timing? We all go at our own pace. YOU will go at your own pace. Stop worrying about how “by this age, usually people know what they want to do” or how “I should have figured it out by now”. You’ll figure things out in the time that it takes for YOU to figure it out. You will live by your own terms, and no one else’s.
Every day I cry because there is some 13 year old on X-factor who can sing like a mixture of beyonce, jesus and whitney houston. When I was 13 I could barely sing in front of an audience without wanting to piss my pants, hyperventilate, and have a panic attack.
But it’s okay because they’re doin them, and I’m doin me and we’re all simply meant for different things at different times.
Focus on what makes YOU happy. Focus on what excites YOU. Try new things. Meet new people. Do things you’ve always wanted to do. Do things you’ve never imagined you’d do and see how it makes you feel. The moment you stop living your life is the moment you start to second guess if you’re “living it right”.
Keep searching and keep fighting. You’ll find it, I promise you. So long as you’re giving it your all, there’s nothing more you should ask of yourself.
The kind of newspaper I’d definitely read.
You turn on the news and it’s nothing but car accidents, murders, and rapes. If they’d focus more on the positive stuff, maybe people wouldn’t be so negative about the world.
Keep expectations low, but hope for the best.
Honestly, I just wanna find something genuine and meaningful. No games. No tricks. No complications. No bullshit.
Something real, pure, and innocent. Filled with the excitement and bliss of getting to know someone knew.
The butterflies. The jitters. The nervousness. The undeniable feelings that develop. All of it. I wanna find that.
It was this weeks homework assignment. This is the rough draft!!
If you’re interested in reading it, go for ittttttt.
Went to a super fancy tea shop today with a couple homies!!!! I loved it. We all just kept talking in British accents the whole time with our pinkies up. Most definitely gonna try to find more places like this now! :)